finding my way back...

Sometimes life is overwhelming. I know that there things that I can smile about, but I just don't have the energy. I feel bad that I can't smile when I know I should and it makes me feel ungrateful. God has given me so much and yet I can't find happiness every moment. Sometimes it is just too much work and really all I want to do is sleep without having to worry about waking up and started the cycle of homework, class, meal, class, homework, etc again. I just want a moment of peace. Honest peace. Peace that overwhelms and floods my soul with a rest from the chaos that is occuring every second, every day. I feel like I am grasping for God, trying to find the way back to the joy from yesterday, but I just can't make it. I don't have the strength and I feel like God is letting me lie on the floor for a while, just watching me without picking me up. Maybe when I am on my face, I can actually pray for once, though...I just need life to slow down so I can pick up the pieces, examine them, and start putting them back together so I can be whole again.

hello, blogging world?

I must admit that I have only had a blog once in my life and only a few people read that one. I don't suppose that many more will read this, but that is just fine with me. However, this is my voice and this is my message. It is my thoughts on life, love, llamas, and other things that start with 'l'. I don't know how often I will update this, but it is mainly for me so that, even though no one reads my thoughts or cares if they do read them, at least it had a placating effect on my life, kind of like a placebo. Anyways...

For His glory alone,
Elisa