I wrote this over two years ago, and I just found it again the other day in my Facebook notes.
I want to be a princess. Loved, cherished, and precious to one prince.
I want to be strong enough for friends to lean on me and wise enough to know what to say when they need advice.
I want to become a woman of God and not doubt my intentions. I want to trust in something safe and secure, and not break every time someone hurts me.
I want to be unselfish and not wish for someone to let me just cry and be upset. I want someone to listen instead of always being the one who is listening.
I want to not complain.
I want God to make good on the promise to comfort me and to give me the desires of my heart.
I want my time to be now, and I wish I knew what that time was. I want to start a revolution that can't be stopped. I want to be wholly devoted to God and run with Him, completely free. I want to see His majesty on its grandest scale and fall down in awe of Him.
I want to meet my Grandma Reid and see if I am really like her, like people say I am.
I want to know how deja vu works and how God is so incredible.
I want to be wise and intellectual at the same time.
I want to face the future with my arms open wide and fall into my future, completely ready.
I want to not ache when I see beauty and not be homesick for Heaven just about everyday. I want to be Home. I want to be whole. I want to be able to let go of past hurts and be able to forgive without curling up into my little ball of self-indulgent anger and hurt first. I want to not be so lonely all the time and be able to find my peace in God. I want to cling to His promises without doubting them and I want to take back the hurtful things that I've said. I want to not regret and I want to be able to trust someone with my heart.
I want life to be as simplistic as the joy I find in the sunrise. I want to be a simple girl who finds joy in common things. I want to live an uncommon, rare life.
I want someone to find me precious.
I want to understand.
I want to be extraordinary, excellent, passionate, caring, holy, Christ-like. I want to be able to pray and move mountains.
I want to love Jesus without limits and pour His love over my world.
"There is no condition of the human heart that Jesus Christ can't heal..." --Linda Nichols, At the Scent of Water
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