Saturday, May 1, 2010
Hold My Heart
Kristyn posted a link and the lyrics to "Hold My Heart" by Tenth Avenue North in the comments area on yesterday's post and I am putting them here because this song is amazing!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1z52WaOr1-g
"How long must I pray, must I pray to you?
How long must I wait, must I wait for you?
How long 'til I see Your face, see You shining through?
I'm on my knees, begging You to notice me
I'm on my knees, Father, will You turn to me?
One tear in the dropping rain
One voice in the sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
hear the sound of my breaking heart?
One light, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
won't You come close and hold my heart?
I've been so afraid, afraid to close my eyes
So much can slip away before I say goodbye
But if there's no other way, I'm done asking why
'Cause I'm on my knees, begging You to turn to me
I'm on my knees, Father, will You run to me?
One tear in the dropping rain
One voice in the sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
hear the sound of my breaking heart?
One light, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
won't You come close and hold my heart?
So many questions without answers, Your promises remain
I can't sleep but I'll take my chances to hear You call my name
To hear You call my name
One tear in the dropping rain
One voice in the sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
hear the sound of my breaking tear?
One light, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
won't You come close and hold my heart?
Hold my heart, could You hold my heart?
Hold my heart"
Today is one month. It feels like it's only been moments since it was ended, but it also feels like years since I have seen him.
-Elisa.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1z52WaOr1-g
"How long must I pray, must I pray to you?
How long must I wait, must I wait for you?
How long 'til I see Your face, see You shining through?
I'm on my knees, begging You to notice me
I'm on my knees, Father, will You turn to me?
One tear in the dropping rain
One voice in the sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
hear the sound of my breaking heart?
One light, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
won't You come close and hold my heart?
I've been so afraid, afraid to close my eyes
So much can slip away before I say goodbye
But if there's no other way, I'm done asking why
'Cause I'm on my knees, begging You to turn to me
I'm on my knees, Father, will You run to me?
One tear in the dropping rain
One voice in the sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
hear the sound of my breaking heart?
One light, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
won't You come close and hold my heart?
So many questions without answers, Your promises remain
I can't sleep but I'll take my chances to hear You call my name
To hear You call my name
One tear in the dropping rain
One voice in the sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
hear the sound of my breaking tear?
One light, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
won't You come close and hold my heart?
Hold my heart, could You hold my heart?
Hold my heart"
Today is one month. It feels like it's only been moments since it was ended, but it also feels like years since I have seen him.
-Elisa.
Friday, April 30, 2010
But He Is Faithful
Today I find myself internally ranting at God about suffering and why He allows it to occur. His plans are good, perfect, and ultimately for my benefit or the benefit of others, but why does He let me and my friends hurt along the way? Why does He allow broken hearts, broken dreams, lost loved ones, and all the rest? I don't understand the purpose of pain and I am tired of arguing with myself about why, if, when, how, and everything else! And, once again, I find myself falling into my habit of saying "but" statements. God is faithful, but I am in pain. God is good, but my heart is hurting. God's plans are perfect, but I am (fill in the blank).
And, once again, God is gently saying, "No, Elisa. Listen to me. Hear My heart and understand this. You are in pain, but I am faithful. Your heart is hurting, but I am good. You can't see the way forward, but I know the plans I have for you and they are perfect."
You see, this has more significance to me than just having the sentence switched around. I have only watched one Dr. Phil episode in my life and he was saying that the word "but" erases everything in the sentence before it. It negates what came before. So, when I am saying that God is faithful, but I am in pain, I am negating His faithfulness. I'm throwing it back into His face and, ultimately, saying, "Look what YOU did to me! You who are supposed to be faithful. Look at the pain!" Instead, I should be saying everything the other way around, because then I am saying that, even though my heart is hurting, God is faithful. And then my eyes are drawn to God's face, instead of having them focussed on the pain that is here right now.
God's face is beautiful. It is full of love, grace, and mercy. It is the face of the Father who loved His lost ones enough to send His Beloved to earth to win my heart back. It is the face of the Father who knows the pain that I am going through and allows it because He knows that I will be more beautiful and more in-tune with Him for it. I still don't understand suffering, but right now I am okay with that, because I trust in Him to bring me through it and someday I may know why.
Check out this awesome song called "My Savior My God" by Aaron Shust. It's pretty wonderful
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mb8IpU7asRA
-Elisa.
And, once again, God is gently saying, "No, Elisa. Listen to me. Hear My heart and understand this. You are in pain, but I am faithful. Your heart is hurting, but I am good. You can't see the way forward, but I know the plans I have for you and they are perfect."
You see, this has more significance to me than just having the sentence switched around. I have only watched one Dr. Phil episode in my life and he was saying that the word "but" erases everything in the sentence before it. It negates what came before. So, when I am saying that God is faithful, but I am in pain, I am negating His faithfulness. I'm throwing it back into His face and, ultimately, saying, "Look what YOU did to me! You who are supposed to be faithful. Look at the pain!" Instead, I should be saying everything the other way around, because then I am saying that, even though my heart is hurting, God is faithful. And then my eyes are drawn to God's face, instead of having them focussed on the pain that is here right now.
God's face is beautiful. It is full of love, grace, and mercy. It is the face of the Father who loved His lost ones enough to send His Beloved to earth to win my heart back. It is the face of the Father who knows the pain that I am going through and allows it because He knows that I will be more beautiful and more in-tune with Him for it. I still don't understand suffering, but right now I am okay with that, because I trust in Him to bring me through it and someday I may know why.
Check out this awesome song called "My Savior My God" by Aaron Shust. It's pretty wonderful
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mb8IpU7asRA
-Elisa.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Blessings
Ever since Richard told me on Sunday what God had said to him about God blessing me in ways greater than Richard could even imagine, I have been curious about these blessings. What are they? When do I start looking for them? I realized the other night, though, that God doesn't want me to just wait around for Him to start pouring blessings onto my life. Rather, I am to walk in His will and glorify Him. And, through committing my life to Him and submitting to His will, then I will be blessed simply through those actions.
Maybe God will bless me in the way that I hope He will, but He might not. However, if I am in His will and submitting to Him, then I think that I will accept His blessings no matter what form they take and be thankful for them. I have to choose to view things as blessings, no matter how small they end up being. And then those "small" blessings will become huge because they are from God and the fact that He wants to bless me in the first place is amazing, awe-inspiring, and HUGE!
-Elisa.
Maybe God will bless me in the way that I hope He will, but He might not. However, if I am in His will and submitting to Him, then I think that I will accept His blessings no matter what form they take and be thankful for them. I have to choose to view things as blessings, no matter how small they end up being. And then those "small" blessings will become huge because they are from God and the fact that He wants to bless me in the first place is amazing, awe-inspiring, and HUGE!
-Elisa.
Monday, April 26, 2010
The Most Beautiful Romance
Two posts in one day! Wow.
I found this song on my friend Alex's wedding site and it wowed me. It is such a huge promise!
"Love is Not a Fight" by Warren Barfield
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUykqETc0XQ
"Love is not a place
to come and go as we please
It's a house we enter in
then commit to never leave
So lock the door behind you,
throw away the key
We'll work it out together
Let it bring us to our knees
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight
but it's something worth fighting for
To some, love is a word
that they can fall into
But when they're falling out
keeping that word is hard to do
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight
but it's something worth fighting for
Love will come to save us
If we'll only call
He will ask nothing from us
but demand we give our all
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight
but it's something worth fighting for
I will fight for you
Would you fight for me?
It's worth fighting for"
Love is worth fighting for and Jesus proved this when He, the greatest Lover of all, took my sins to the cross and died for me so that I could have eternal life. He is my shelter, my peace, and He is not going to let me leave the safety of His arms. He fought for me and will continue to fight for my heart. How utterly romantic and wonderful!
God is love. Jesus is God with us. Jesus is love with us! In 1 Corinthians 13:4-8, we have the promise of what Jesus' love consists.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails!"
I don't know about you, but this love sends tingles down my spine and it makes me breathless. I am in awe of the great God who would send His beloved Son to save ME because of this love. What mercy, what grace! He is worthy of praise. And He calls me to share love like this with the world. That is a huge challenge, but when God pours this sort of love into me, I can't help but be a leaky vessel and spew the love back to the world. God's love is not meant to be contained, for it can shake the foundations of the world.
I had to share.
-Elisa.
I found this song on my friend Alex's wedding site and it wowed me. It is such a huge promise!
"Love is Not a Fight" by Warren Barfield
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUykqETc0XQ
"Love is not a place
to come and go as we please
It's a house we enter in
then commit to never leave
So lock the door behind you,
throw away the key
We'll work it out together
Let it bring us to our knees
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight
but it's something worth fighting for
To some, love is a word
that they can fall into
But when they're falling out
keeping that word is hard to do
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight
but it's something worth fighting for
Love will come to save us
If we'll only call
He will ask nothing from us
but demand we give our all
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight
but it's something worth fighting for
I will fight for you
Would you fight for me?
It's worth fighting for"
Love is worth fighting for and Jesus proved this when He, the greatest Lover of all, took my sins to the cross and died for me so that I could have eternal life. He is my shelter, my peace, and He is not going to let me leave the safety of His arms. He fought for me and will continue to fight for my heart. How utterly romantic and wonderful!
God is love. Jesus is God with us. Jesus is love with us! In 1 Corinthians 13:4-8, we have the promise of what Jesus' love consists.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails!"
I don't know about you, but this love sends tingles down my spine and it makes me breathless. I am in awe of the great God who would send His beloved Son to save ME because of this love. What mercy, what grace! He is worthy of praise. And He calls me to share love like this with the world. That is a huge challenge, but when God pours this sort of love into me, I can't help but be a leaky vessel and spew the love back to the world. God's love is not meant to be contained, for it can shake the foundations of the world.
I had to share.
-Elisa.
where else can i go?
John 6:68-69
Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God."
So, with that truth in mind, where else can I go? There is nothing other than God that will heal my heart or bring me peace.
Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God."
So, with that truth in mind, where else can I go? There is nothing other than God that will heal my heart or bring me peace.
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